Deeper, truer meaning

Time and time again, God has worked drastically in me during the hardest times in my life. Looking back, the trials I have overcome have provided much growth. They are also, by far, some of the sweetest times in my life.


The sugar with the spoon. 


Although I have already left APU, the leaving feels far from over. As my friends from APU return to campus, it has been really hard to sit at home waiting to leave for DC. Receiving text messages saying, "I miss you - I wish I could just stop by and see you" and "I'm doing this and that - wish you were here!" is bittersweet. On one hand, my heart aches because I wish I was there too - continuing to experience college with them. On the other, it is comforting that my friends, some of whom are practically family, haven't forgotten me. 


I know that my time in DC will be an experience unlike any I could have at APU, and I am incredibly blessed to have this wonderful opportunity! It will be hard. Especially this next week or so. With the help of encouragement of others and spending time with God, I trust that He will make this hard experience something sweet. 


That brings me to  the name of my blog: Sugar and the Spoon.


Courtney Davenport - as some of you may know - recently recorded a CD. It's pretty great and has been such an encouragement to me over the past several days. One of the songs talks about thanking God for all situations. When we feel His presence and when we don't - when we are going through easy times and rough - know that in it, He is "revealing precious parts of Jesus' heart." 


Here are some of the lyrics:

"I thank you for the good and for the hard

Thank you for the sun and for the moonlight

Thank you for the chance to trust when everything looks dark

Thank you for the sugar and the spoon...

I stare into the sky with eyes of faith

Standing on the promises you've made

I rise up with the eagles as I wait upon you, God

I take refuge in the shadow of your wing."

I am deeply comforted by the knowledge that God is with me. It has brought me much peace. I am excited and a bit nervous knowing confidently God is going to send me on a wild ride in a couple days, but it's hard to sense the sweetness in life without it being delivered with something hard. Sugar and the spoon.